2024-11-05

So I am back at it with the bg3. But you know. in an. im playing a video game and these aren't real people way. i am once again in contact with reality. i am also planning on startin to DM some dnd things. will do a practice round with my partner soon, just a little one on one oneshot from the candlekeep mysteries book. oh and also i am thinking about starting taking archery classes? is that a little insane? maybe. but i think it will be good for me. i want to join a club. i want to meet people i want to be silly and shoot arrows for funs. also i have the audacity, and i think i might be really good at it? haha

still dont know how that exam went... but now im taking a new class and it is fun. its about water treatment, both drinking water and wastewater. which is something i am passionate about. so i think i will be happier the next 8 weeks of studying.

idk man things are starting to feel better. i am planning on doing things, and whatnot. with friends, on my own. its just good.

2024-11-18

Hello! it me again! mentally i am doing so much better now. the state of it is still scary. like the world i mean. politically and whatnot. but we must stay hopeful and life must go on.

i have finally started running a dnd campaign. this is my first time dm:ing, and im enjoying it so far. my players are all friends of mine (ig one is technically the partner of a friend, but i like her a lot and hope we can be friends), so i think it will all run smoothly. before i have only ever played with people i met through dnd, which was fun but it was also hard to know which kind of relationship we had, you know? when you have no contact with them outside of the game.

anyways, we have had session 0. it went well. 2 people had to call in sick, so only 4 people could attend. which is fine, that is why i think it is good that we have 6 players instead of the recommended 5 (LMoP, im not making up my own adventure for my first time). no one has to feel like they are stumping the party if they have to take a session off and rest, because even if 2 ppl cant attend there is a reasonably sized party to play. we will work in the other two characters later, i think it will just make the story more interesting. hopefully the two players who didnt attend session 0 agree with me because they have been my friends for like 15 years and i want to do more things with them always.

I am also going to start taking archery classes i think. im going to a class this week, for beginners. idk i just need to do things, you know? get out there, try my hand at new hobbies and skills. meet new people. i have been feeling really close to people in general lately. like i love everyone a little bit more than i have before. maybe this is just what maturing feels like? in that case, i think i will very much like being a proper adult. i want to be a lover at heart, always.

2024-11-19

I DID IT!! i passed my statistics exam WITH CREDIT!!!! so not just passed, i got a better grade!! GUYS I WILL CRY this is such a relief. i felt my whole body relax jfc. i am going to buy a cake for my partner and i to enjoy on account of this. this is so good i am so happy.

back to calculating wastewater flows, i guess.